One of my pet peeves lately is this quote, thrown around in various guises, to motivate or inspire or something; You have the same 24 hours in the day as Beyonce.
I get it, I really do. I get the point you’re trying to make but here’s the thing; you’re wrong.'You have the same 24 hours in the day as Beyonce.' I get it, I really do. I get the point you're trying to make but here's the thing; you're wrong. Click To Tweet
Same hours; more to do
Yes, we all have 24 hours in a day but some of us have to do more things which take up those hours simply to make it to the next day in one piece, or at all. For the average person those things may just be eat, sleep and shower. For those of us with long-term illnesses the list can be far longer and also variable.
On a good day I can get a lot done and I do have many more good days now. But on a bad day, of which there are still many, here’s a quick overview of where I can find myself having to spend my time.
30mins – 5+ hours: using all my energy to repress and avoid the emotional onslaught.
1 hour: BPD breakdown.
1 hour: calming down, returning breathing to normal, putting more layers on, finding a snack and drink.
2 hours: re-calibrating emotionally and reducing stress hormones through quiet time and relaxation techniques.
1 hour: extra long, extra chill yoga and meditation.
1 hour+: tackling negative self talk and other self-hating beliefs that crept in while my guard was down and rebuilding my confidence.
My point is this; sometimes I can be a productive business badass, my self care is on point, my mental illness is under control and I can get all the things done. Sometimes managing my mental illness is a full time job.Sometimes I can be a productive badass. Sometimes managing my mental illness is a full time job. Click To Tweet
Self care is productive
Not only that but managing my mental illness is productive. It is time well spent. On good days I spend about 2 to 3 hours doing various self care activities; yoga, meditation, showering, altar time, quiet time, filling in my self love workbook. None of it is wasted time because my self care practice enables me to continue functioning each day.
Equally, on a bad day when I have no choice but to take time off, that is not wasted time either. The time I spend holding myself through those moments and putting myself back together afterwards is what enables me to keep going and to work at all.
When I wasn’t doing those things I was unable to function; I leapt from breakdown to breakdown via suicidal A&E trips. My every waking moment was consumed with the endless and overwhelming emotions battling inside me. There was nothing else. There was no space for anything else. There was no time for anything else.
So while we may all have the same 24 hours in the day as Beyonce, we do not all have the same things on our must-do lists, we do not all have the same ability to offload some of the regular jobs, and we do not all have the luxury of choosing how we use every single one of those hours.