I believe that 2016 will be full of joy for me. I believe that I will begin to create the life I want, the life I deserve. I believe that my Tarot Year Card means letting go and surrendering to the divine.
I am late with this The Prompt post. I wanted to write it for Christmas, I wanted to be full of belief then, belief in Santa, in the goodness of the human race, belief that it will all be OK. But it would have been lies.
Now though, now it’s not. Now I’ve worked on my Leonie Dawson Life Workbook, now I am filled with belief.
My word of the year, for all of 2016, is JOY! It felt so natural to choose that word. As I filled in the workbook I found myself writing it over and over. What do I want? Joy. How do I want to feel? Joyful. It kept pouring out of me, so when I finally reached the word of the year page I didn’t really even think before writing JOY down, in big letters!
Last year, in another “The Prompt” post about focus, I wrote that my word of 2015 was shine. I tried to shine this year. I did shine this year. I put my light out there, I spoke more than ever about the truth of living with mental illness, the ups and downs of it, I shone through the bad times, the crippling anxiety, I fought through it all. I lived the saying that “it’s ok to be a glowstick, sometimes we have to break before we shine.”
But this year, this year it needed to be joy. Because that’s what I want. That’s what I intend to fill my year with: Joyful moments, joyful memories, joyfulness in general.
I have set up a jar for collecting “everyday miracles,” where I will pop little pieces of paper filled with joy each day, or however often they happen. I will be writing in my 2016 planner joyful things, and I will be fighting to embrace my word: JOY!
I’m not stupid, I know not everyday will be filled with joy, but as many a wise person says, there will be a little joy in every day. (OK, I switched “good” for “joy” but same deal!) I know I will live my life fighting because of my mental illness, I am slowly coming to terms with that. But now I believe that, despite that, I can live a joyful, joy-filled life.
What’s your word for the year?