After a few difficult weeks, more realistically over a month, of struggling with my weight loss because of my mental illness, this week I finally kicked my anxiety back into touch. I am hoping that that means I am now free to ditch the food crutch again and get focused and motivated once more.
This week has been a disaster food wise; crisps, chocolate, mince pies, oh god. All the things. However, I have managed to go for a forest walk with my doggies and Step-Dad, had a practice bowling session on Friday and made it to dog agility on Saturday, all of which count as exercise for me.
Fortunately, very fortunately, I managed to maintain this week. So I have a good jumping off point for this coming week’s healthy eating. I need to keep an eye on my portion sizes, they have been slowly getting bigger again. I need to watch the intake of junk, fewer crisps and hopefully very little chocolate this week.
I do have a Christmas lunch to go to on Tuesday and I wont be restricting myself there. I’ve said before, and I’ll say it again, I want to still enjoy food and the company that often goes with it. So I will be munching my way through several, hopefully delicious, courses, including pudding, and possibly wine, but that’s OK, and I’m not going to beat myself up for that.
So here we go, new motivation, better place mentally and emotionally, here’s hoping that this coming week will see a nice loss on the scales. Although I am pleased to note that friends and family are noticing that I’m losing weight and I can see and feel in my body that I am too, which is great! Hooray for sensible eating!