Last week I mentioned that I was really struggling with my anxiety, and sadly this week has been no better. My weight loss has been on the back burner as I focus on self care and just getting through each day. I have been eating crisps a lot, even some odd bits of chocolate, and I’ve done very little exercise because I’ve not been able to go to agility with my little pooch. Basically, it’s not been a good week, again. I’m not proud of that, and I know that I need to keep trying with my weight because if I start putting on again I know it will affect me negatively mentally too. But at the same time I have to put my mental health first and work on easing my anxiety, that has to be my main focus.
I wont say I was prepared for a gain, but I did expect it. However, this morning I hopped on the scales to see a 1lb loss! Proof that my long term, lifestyle changes are still making a difference I think, or maybe just dumb luck?!
So this week is going to be about fighting my anxiety some more and trying not to use food to deal with my emotions.
I will say that I’m not using food like I used to, I’m not craving anything at all to just stuff myself with to try and fill that gaping hole, but after last week I realise that I am still using food as a crutch. It needs to stop, I need to find a healthy alternative. It wont be exercise, I still struggle to like exercise even a little, let alone enjoy it or find it therapeutic, but there must be something out there that can replace food when I am struggling emotionally. Thoughts and suggestions most welcome!