I’m late writing this post, I haven’t taken part in Word of the Week for a few weeks now either, but this week a word has been handing over me. That word was just brought to the fore even more after the horrific events in Paris tonight. That word is ‘fear.’
Earlier this week I shared my anxiety issues which were rising, hey subsided after a few days and all was well again. But tonight, as the news came in about deaths in Paris, I felt fear again. Numerous people dead, others being held hostage, it is yet another reminder that the world is a scary, dangerous and evil place.
I want to change it, I want to help, I want for it all to stop. I don’t understand, I can’t get my head around that kind of hate, that desire to destroy lives, to strike absolute terror into anyone. I don’t understand it.
In reality though, I can’t change it. I can pray, I can send good vibes out into the world, but that is all. I am not, and never will be, anyone in a position to change things, and, if I’m honest, I’m not sure even the people with power in the world can change the views of those with blood lust, but what I can do is love. And I was reminded of that as I pulled a card from my new Oracle card deck tonight. I prayed it would calm me, soothe me, and it did; choose love, that’s what it advised, so here I am, choosing love. I choose to believe that it will be OK. That those who lost their lives will find a better place, that their loved ones left behind will find support and that the world is, in general, a good place.
So yes, I am afraid, I am scared for the world, for me, for my friends and family, for everyone, but I choose to believe that love will conquer the evil. Do you?