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Dear So and So: Failure

Dear Ergotherapy Group,

I’m sorry for holding you up and causing hassle with my anxiety issues. I can’t help it, but I’m still sorry.

I hope your walk was good today. I hope to be able to join you again soon.

Yours,
Crying, sniffling, English girl.

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Dear Ergotherapy Leader,

I am equally sorry to you for causing problems in your group. I am also thankful for your attempts to calm me down and for being understanding. I hope we can figure something out on Thursday that will help me to come to your group without tears and stress.

Yours,
Apologetic English girl.

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Dear Me,

Please try not to feel like a failure, you tried, you did your best today, that’s what counts.

I know that you are struggling to see a life for yourself again right now, struggling to figure out how you live like this, with this curse/illness, but you will see the light again, soon.

Do not give in. Please, do not give in.

This too shall pass.

Lots of love,
Willing you on.
backgroundDear Anxiety,

Why are you here? Why do you do this to me? Why do you make simple tasks impossible?

Do you realise how much of a failure you make me feel each time you prevent me from doing something? Today, for example, not only did you cause me to hold up my ergotherapy group, but you made me let down myself and my family, again.

I hate you. I am angry at you, and at me, and I am frustrated that I can’t seem to fight you.

Yours,
Battle Weary.

Dear So and So at Mummy from the Heart

3 comments

  1. Steve

    You did NOT let anyone down. These are things that are not in your control so therefore you’re not to be blamed. When all is said and done you’re still alive and for that you must be grateful. Make sure that every and I do mean EVERY morning you wake you celebrate that fact. Because there’s so many that never manage it. I know it’s hard but try and think of things that make you laugh. If not like a drain then at least make you smile a bit.

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  2. Michelle Twin Mum

    I think you did amazing to make it there and so what if they got held up a little. I’m so sorry you suffer so much with your anxiety but I love to read about your fighting it rather than just accepting it. Keep going. Mich x

  3. Hannah

    It’s so bloody tough, hang in there. You’re not a failure and you don’t let alone down. Just keep that head up x

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