If there was ever a prompt that described me, this is probably it! So I best get writing on it, huh?!
My life is pretty much ruled by fear thanks to my anxiety disorder. Sure I have other emotional regulation issues too, but I honestly feel that, if my anxiety were removed, my life would be inordinately better.
The most noticeable side of my anxiety is my social anxiety; I’m not good at being around people, especially not when I’m alone. But I also have general anxiety, which is harder to explain, because it affects everything. It creates anxiety around absolutely everything from the smallest things like picking up a glass and worrying to a stupid degree I will drop it/squeeze it too hard/throw it for no reason, to the big things like the future and worrying what I will do when my parents are no longer here. Every thought is tinged with anxiety, sometimes with panic, it is exhausting.
Hide me. Someone, please, hide me.
Hide me from the things that come to get me.
The things that come in the night,
And in the day,
That creep, that fly, that attack,
Wild and evil, dark and cruel.
Rescue me. Someone, please, rescue me.
Rescue me from the darkness that looms so near.
That waits for any weakness,
Just a chink,
And in it will swoop,
Deep into my soul, into my being,
Tearing, ripping, destroying.
Save me. Someone, please, save me.
Save me from the fear inside me that taints every thought.
That overtakes everything,
That defines me,
Ruining my whole life,
Seeping into every piece of me,
Creating terror, panic, dread.