Beauty is not a size. Nor is it a shape, or a BMI. Beauty is not with or without make-up. Beauty is not the latest trends, or a vintage look.
Beauty, for me, is what is inside. I know beautiful women, so many beautiful women, who are beautiful because their internal good shines out from them. It gives them an aura that creates beauty. They may not be a size 0, or an hourglass figure, or go running every day, but my god are they beautiful.
And this is what I must learn in regards to myself; that my size and my lack of ability to run for a bus has no bearing on my beauty. That no matter what people may say to knock my confidence I must hold on to the knowledge that beauty comes from within. It is not just skin deep. And I hope that when that really sinks in and I can love myself as I am, that then I will be in a place to lose weight for the right reasons.