Make Waves

Over at Tossing the Script there’s an essay contest, the topic of which is “make waves” and I couldn’t resist the opportunity to write, again, about making waves in my own life! By now, if you’ve followed the blog for a while, you’ll know my entire life story, but this prompt inspired me so I’m sharing bits again!

My life with bipolar, and other mental illnesses, is very much like the being tossed on the waves; up one moment, down the next. There are periods of calm, where the illnesses merely creates little bubbles that gently rock me, but soon the waves crash upon me again.

I am sailing on those seas and have been for some time now, and slowly I am learning how to keep steady on the waves.

When I was younger the waves affected me greatly; I was thrown up and down by them, I had no idea how to steady my little boat. It was exhausting. I tried to fight against the waves but that was even more exhausting, they were stronger than me. I lost friends through my actions, actions I couldn’t control but with no way to explain and no diagnosis they couldn’t understand. It affected all my life, forced me to drop out of Uni, stop working and generally lead an unstable life.

Then I traveled across the channel, a journey across literal waves, and in France I found a psychiatrist prepared to spend time with me, to learn about me and prescribe medications that eased those waves. Although some things get lost in translation, he cares.

With the helps of friends and family and treatment I have learnt to adjust my sails instead of fighting the waves. They still crash upon me and occasionally I find myself off course, but in general now I am in control of my boat.

Now I make waves of my own accord in life, through this blog I try and make waves in the arena of mental health, hopefully bringing awareness to some conditions and to the reality of living with them. My own waves will never subdue, I will always be on somewhat stormy seas but hopefully through writing and sharing my stories I will not only keep my own boat ship shape, but help others to find ways to steady their own vessels.

making waves

4 comments

  1. Miss Nutralicious

    I love the line “I have learnt to adjust my sails instead of fighting the waves”. What a great attitude! I think this is the only way to live whenever you are sailing in stormy seas. Sometimes life throws us a curve ball, but we just have to roll with it and carry on! Thanks for sharing this post!

  2. Alicia | Jaybird

    A big second for loving the line about adjusting your sails. We have to do that so many times throughout our lives; it’s a good skill to have when you know there are rocks or stormy seas ahead. Mental health advocacy is also a wonderful gift to bring into people and share via your blog–keep on keepin’ on!

  3. Caitlin | belong with wildflowers

    Hi there! Stopping by from the Make Waves contest — what an open + honest essay. So beautiful + authentic! Mental health advocacy is so important, and I’m sure it’s making big waves in many people’s lives 🙂

    1. Mrs TeePot

      Thanks for stopping by and for your kind comment.

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