Dear Me,
Well done on your weight loss so far, and well done for taking the leap from that teeny weeny amount of sugar in your coffee to none at all. I know that having that tiny amount of sugar in your coffee and tea has been a way to cling on to your past self, but you’ve let go now, and that is great!
Well done,
Your grateful body.
Dear TiLi,
Thank you for trusting me, for listening to me, for generally being a super star at agility. I am so proud of you and how far you have come, of how far we have come as a team.
Tomorrow we start a new challenge. We have been promoted! I know you will love it, it will give you chance to learn more, to improve more, to try new equipment and go faster and generally enjoy yourself more. But I’ll let you in on a secret; Mummy is scared.
There will be new people, new challenges, they will all be way ahead of us in their training, we will be the small fish in the big pond again, and I am scared. I am scared that my nerves will rub off on you, and I don’t want them to. I am scared that I will let you down, and I don’t want to. Know that I will do my very best though, for you.
While we’re talking about agility, I know how much everyone wants me to enter you in the charity competition at the end of August but, again, I am scared. I desperately want to be able to let you shine, to give you more opportunities to show your skills, to learn more, to practice, but I am scared that I will not be able to do it in front of all those people.
I know you don’t really understand, and you will be pulling on the lead to get into that ring and show how awesome you are, and Mummy will try her best, but please don’t be disappointed in me if I can’t do it. One day we will do it, one day Mummy will beat her anxiety and we will show them all.
Lots of love,
Mummy
